ARMS - love this song I can hear it over & over

i never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
but you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

you put your arms around me
and i believe that it's easier for you to let me go
you put your arms me and i'm home

how many times will let you me change my mind and turn around?
i can't decide if i'll let you save my life or if i'll drown

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me cause i'm already falling
i'll never let a love get so close
you put your arms around me and i'm home

the world is coming down on me and i can't find a reason to be loved
i never wanna leave you but i can't make you bleed if i'm alone

you put your arms around me
and i believe that it's easier for you to let me go

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me cause i'm already falling
i'll never let a love get so close
you put your arms around me and i'm home

i try my best to never let you in to see the truth
and i've never opened up
i've never truly loved til...

you put your arms around me
and i believe that it's easier for you to let me go

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me, cause i'm already falling
i'll never let a love get so close
you put your arms around me and i'm home

you put your arms around me and i'm home.♥

Being ME!

I haven't felt this happy in a long time
I have not been myself in a long time
I have to say it has been cause I blocked DRAMA out
I spoke my mind 2 weeks ago and it felt good
you can't make someone stay with you
my mom will probably never come see me or brother
but I know at the end they will understand
I have a duaghter and I would hate for her to go back to that bullshit if she left
no one understands me about how I feel about it
they say to me
your wrong
don't you want the kids to have mom and dad around
my answer is yes I do want mom and dad around but not like that
and maybe I'm wrong cause I agree on her leaving but its ok she is ok and not dead
His lawyer said to me when I gave her all the e-mails
rosa you really are taking a risk cause it seems you love her like your own sister
my answer was
yes but i'm not doing anything wrong and she will understand
her question was do you really want me to help him get this of his record?
my answer
NO, he needs to stay away from her and she came to the right person to help her, her sister
I know you didn't come to us cause he would found you right away
I don't think yall should even talk but I know that yall are doing it so the kids can see yall our ok on the phone
ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS KEEP LOOKING FOWARD AND NOT BACK
DON'T LET HIM TRY TO BRIAN WASH YOU
TAKE CARE
you may not care about us but here in the Lalo, Juliet and Rosa house we still love and care about you a lot

just saying

I don't know why ppl think i can read minds
if you want me to do something for you, just ask
i hate how ppl always beleive what they hear
if you didn't hear it from me its not true
i am the type of person that speaks her mind
and ppl always take it like i'm talking shit
so take it the way you want
i don't give a FUCK
if you don't like how i live
stop coming to see me
if you don't like what i say
don't start DRAMA at my house
FUCK i always try to do the right thing
i have always been told Rosa you need to learn how to say NO
i'm always the one who folds my arms and make the first move
i may act like i am strong but deep down inside i am not

keep your eyes open

don't let them cover your eyes that's what they want
stick to your plan
don't believe every word he says
he would seat there and ask me you talk to her
she would not want to go visit him cause she was tired of listening to him
he would say things like
I know you know shes out at bars
once he told me how you said you were at work but then he called your job and they told him you were gone for the day
don't let him lie to you
he would tell me how you had a pic of a rose that you got from work
stalker is something i don't do for anyone not even me

carol

if you ever read my blogg or facebook, know that what ever you did was not wrong
no one should ever judge you
I know that the last past 3 weeks i have been mad at you and hurt
but I want to say I'm Sorry
I lost view of why you left but something happened this weekend that made me remember why you left and I have to say I was not mad anymore
I hope you are having fun because you are single but remember your kids miss you alot
they know your coming back for them
stick to your plan.
I know you don't want no part of us for what happened between you and jr but please remember that we had no part of what jr did.

talk

I have to say I was the girl that everyone had something to say about,
I had friends and family say:
Man Rosa needs to slow down
Did you hear Rosa left with her boyfriend?
Rosa parents moved her away cause shes having a baby @ 14 years old
She is having a baby...lol..
She is always out at parties
She is doing all kind of DRUGS...LOL....
She's sleeping with everyone...lol....

Its funny how I just sat there and never said anything
maybe cause I didn't care and it didn't bother me
Maybe cause it wasn't true.... Who knows I was so young
I can tell you what was true
I did do drugs but not all and not till I was 18 years old
I did leave with my husband but not cause I was going to have a baby
I did party alot
I was not having a baby at 14 or 17 years old
My parents did move me to Eagle Pass cause I wanted to move & have my 15 in Mexico
I can say I can count how many guys I slept with in ONE HAND
It's just funny how people can make up so many stories without knowing what was really going on
All I ever heard was, "I don't want you to hang out with ROSA shes a bad girl!"
But I have to say I have no regrets I don't have to say I wish I knew what would had happen if I did that.
However I did make good and bad choices but I never wanted to make a choice that I would have to look back at and said man why did I do that....

There will be good and bad times

Life can get good as well as bad
There will be good and bad friends
Some friends will stay and some will go
Unlike family will always stay
Family is like a good book you can't let go, you can always come back to it
You have thoes who will get under your skin but always love them

In life you will learn that no matter who you think you can trust you really can't
I learned that no matter how of a close friend you have they will stop talking to you
That person will never understand how you feel or why you did it
Just know that no matter what happens in life you will be there praying that things get better
I always say that no matter how much I hate or dislike someone, I will never wish them bad only good