MOM

I wanted to call you again cause she was in the hospital
but I couldn't go through another hang up again
you and him will never understand that just because I spoke or put my
two cent out there
you will never understand that he needs to grow up on hes own
you need to stop treating him like a baby
I know I get it and I understand you when you say things like
you should get along
you should help each other out
you should be there for each other
yall our only three
But what you don't understand that I have been helping
but its never good for you
I don't like to be that person that would throw everything in your face about how much I have helped
I have bought food every week since she left for 6 weeks
gave him gas money
went and drove to his house when I could to take care of the kids
drove him without asking him to pay me back and I'm not working
helped him pay his laywer
payed his phone and insurance
I mean I just don't get it.....
I have done so much just because his my brother and I love him but for what????
So you can get mad one night at someone and take it out on me?
So you can act all crazy in my house in front of all the kids?
So you can throw shit at me like glass in front of my kids?
So you can act like you fanted in front of all the kids?
So you can slap me just because I asked why the fuck are you screaming at me?
You think that what you did to me didn't hurt me?
You thought that her kids didn't see what happened and would tell her the truth?
You and he thought that you can go back and lie on me?
I never once hit you and I would never do that.....
How can you and my brother ask her not to ever talk to me????
Its because of yall I have changed its because of yall I became what I hated the most
I became this person that never wanted anyone around and never wanted to smile.
I lost myself in this one person you wanted me to be
You would sit there and talk shit about my dad how he was going to be old and alone
You would tell me I would be the same but I'm not....
Before yall ever came around me cause yall were never around for me
I always had ppl around me and always had a smile on my face.
Let me ask you a question?
Did I do this to him? NO
He did it to hes self......
He thought it was ok to hit his wife
You think I wanted for this to happened to them? HELL FUCK NO
But he never listened....
Everything I did was to help the kids but now I can't even see them....
So here it goes, I hope your ok mom and the kids. My brother you just need to move on and I hope you learned your lesson. I hope you never put your hands on another women I hope you never hurt another women like you did her.
I lost a someone its like shes dead cause I will never see her again and I will always hear Juliet say things like
we had plans mom, we were going to move to New York and live together
she was going to take me to my first club
she will sit there and cry. i will ask why and she will say its nothing mom
you say its our lost but really its not
Everyone in this world makes there own choice no one can make it for you