Juliet

Your the best daughter anyone could ever ask for
I know some people said ugly things cause you weren't dancing the day of the wedding and because I allowed you to sit with me and drink out of my glass
But who cares......
I love how we can sit and talk about everything, well not everything but about boys and who you like
I want you to go to the school with that boy you like cause he likes you too.
If only your dad would let you
never know what he will say later

I also like how you can tell me when something is bothering you
don't worry the invitation will be sent to her and I really hope she shows up
and if she don't we will understand cause is her choice

However I love you and thats all that matters, LOVE YOU JULIET!

don't want to remember anymore

I don't want to think about you
today as I was driving to work a song come on and it made me remember so much
I tried to keep my tears in and not think
but it was so hard its like your dead, sad to say but true
I want to just delete your pictures and I can't
people tell me WTF Rosa its not like she was blood or like she even cared about you....
but in my heart it doesn't matter cause to me you were blood
I MISS YOU! you were my best friend/you were like that sister that I always wanted
only GOD knows why he put us together and I am very thankful for that.
I loved how we could do things together sure it wasn't all the times but it was fun
movies, tanning, JAX, drinking and enjoying life with the kids!
I know you have moved on and that's good
I wish you the best and don't worry soon you will have all 4 boys again:)
everyone tells me don't write on my blog cause all you do is sit with your sister, read it and talk shit
I don't talk to my mom, dad, brother, and sister
I try god knows I try but I just can't
She tells me Rosa mom and dad are looking for you answer there phone calls and I can't
inside I feel like I can't be me
I just want to forget and never look back
I want someone to hit me on my head so hard so I can forget and not remember you
I want my Juliet to forget too
It kills me when she gets all happy when you write to her and when you don't shes sad.
It kills me when my Andrew asks me mom when is my Tia coming over?
and I have to tell him never your tio fucked up for good this time
I just don't want to remember anymore
but wait...... I can't say that those were the best times
never mind put that bat down you can't erase my life
THANK YOU GOD REALLY....

Mom I want to hurt myself

The hardest words I had to hear you say to me was, "mom I want to hurt myself"
I couldn't believe my eyes and ears when I saw you standing in front of me in tears
I don't know how to make you feel better
All I can do is just make you work-out
I wish I could control your weight but I can't
I wish I could tell you that she will be there for your 15 but I can't
I wish I could say you will see her again but I can't
I know y'all made promises but they got broken for now
I know you had your heart set on him to be there too with you but his not
I never thought you would get your heart broken at such an young age but you did
It's just part of life and I always said, no one ever said life was fair....
I know that you are hurting and your good at hiding your feelings
I wish I could eras all those memories but I can't
One day you will forget that one person you called sister and one day you will forget about your first LOVE....
I will keep your life so busy so you won't think, it will get better once you learn to let go and you will learn to move on....