don't want to remember anymore

I don't want to think about you
today as I was driving to work a song come on and it made me remember so much
I tried to keep my tears in and not think
but it was so hard its like your dead, sad to say but true
I want to just delete your pictures and I can't
people tell me WTF Rosa its not like she was blood or like she even cared about you....
but in my heart it doesn't matter cause to me you were blood
I MISS YOU! you were my best friend/you were like that sister that I always wanted
only GOD knows why he put us together and I am very thankful for that.
I loved how we could do things together sure it wasn't all the times but it was fun
movies, tanning, JAX, drinking and enjoying life with the kids!
I know you have moved on and that's good
I wish you the best and don't worry soon you will have all 4 boys again:)
everyone tells me don't write on my blog cause all you do is sit with your sister, read it and talk shit
I don't talk to my mom, dad, brother, and sister
I try god knows I try but I just can't
She tells me Rosa mom and dad are looking for you answer there phone calls and I can't
inside I feel like I can't be me
I just want to forget and never look back
I want someone to hit me on my head so hard so I can forget and not remember you
I want my Juliet to forget too
It kills me when she gets all happy when you write to her and when you don't shes sad.
It kills me when my Andrew asks me mom when is my Tia coming over?
and I have to tell him never your tio fucked up for good this time
I just don't want to remember anymore
but wait...... I can't say that those were the best times
never mind put that bat down you can't erase my life
THANK YOU GOD REALLY....